let me wipe your tears away
the pain that I also feel tearing me apart
the silent pain of love slowly ripping away the seams of happiness
the silent agony making it unbearable to think, to breathe
wishing time would stop its slow crawl and start to race again
but the only thing racing right now is my heart, my thoughts
the unbearable thoughts and memories pounding away
pounding against the walls of my head
slowly evermore taking away everything
Archive > 11 November 2008
Forevermore…Nothing, By Yuan Cao
The Wall, By Yuan Cao
I have a wall you cannot see
Because it’s deep inside of me.
It blocks my heart on every side
And helps emotions there to hide.
You can’t reach in,
I can’t reach out,
You wonder what it’s all about.
The wall I built that you can’t see
Results from insecurity.
Each time my tender heart was hurt
The scars within grew worse and worse.
So stone by stone,
I built a wall,
That’s now so thick it will not fall
Please understand that it’s not you-
Continue trying to break through.
I want so much to show myself
And love from you will really help.
So bit by bit,
Chip at my wall,
Till stone by stone they start to fall.
I know the process will be slow-
It’s never easy to let go
Of hurts and failures long ingrained,
Upon one’s heart from years of pain.
I’m so afraid
To let you in;
I know i might be hurt again
I try so hard to break the wall,
But seem to get nowhere at all.
For stone upon each stone I’ve stacked,
And left between them not a crack.
The only way to make it fall
Is imperfections in the wall.
I did my best i could to build
A perfect wall, but there are still
A few small flaws, which are the key
To breaking through the wall to me.
Please use each flaw
To cause a crack
To knock a stone off the stack.
For just as stone by stone was laid
With every hurt and every pain,
So stone by stone the wall will break
As love replaces every ache.
Please be the one
Who cares enough
To find the flaws, no matter what.